For a long time I've been trying, but it seems like I haven't tried hard enough.... Let's start from the reason that explains why I do want to become one: Confidence . You may say that I don't need to become one in order to be confident, but I see it like this; the more I feel happy about how I look, express myself and accomplish what I want... there comes in return a new me with better self-steam. I used to be pretty insecure I'm still a little, but before I started to work on my self appearance I didn't believe in me at all, I was someone that wasn't willing to look up as I do now... I had a couple of tough teenage years, I felt ugly and unwanted, I didn't have many friends nor I wanted to have any. Okay, I might be talking to much about the past, I just want to be willing to grow in the style. I now it might be so hard por a person like me, but I'll try until I am happy with the result... it doesn't matter if I end up with more b...